She's a Malaysian. Tied up. Loves the city and lives in it. Currently looking for a Marketing job in retailing / fashion / accessories. Calls herself a "young adult" 'cos that's what being 20+ means, right? *grin* . Meet Soniaaka PhoEbe.
WISH LIST
- Have another holiday in Australia!
- More mobile phone credits
- A trenchcoat like jacket
- My Delias's wishlist
- MY to come home
- Cushion to hug (big)
- 17" flat screened desktop
This is my blogchalk: Malaysia, Selangor, Petaling jaya, English, Chinese, Sonia, Female, Singing, performing, organising events, catching up with frens, spending time with loved ones, learning, cycling.
Saturday, May 09, 2009 :::
Life, and onlining with people
I have no idea where my interest for blogging has went. Probably it has been invested into another popular community online space. Haha!
However, I still enjoy sharing with people. When I read my previous posts, I realise, yea, I still don't mind blogging! But, working life HAS changed me. Me MIA-ing & my limited access to the online world has made me even more lazy to care to online that much. Plus, sometimes I'm just too tired to blog... I have so much on my mind, but when I come home, I don't know where to start. *LOL*
Updates later. And yea, I know. My last post said "to be continued" and this post isn't continuing the story. Haha. Later~ Going out to eat!
How did u spend urs? Or did u refuse to go out cos u think Vday is too commercialised? I think so too. Haha. But this year, I went out (to a social event)! I really had fun! :) Usually I'd spend my Vday with my family (or a group of frens). For normal dinners (not at cut throat places). I'm not sure if I ever did spend Vday with MY ever before. Prolly the most also twice. :P
Anyway, so at this event, I got to meet new peeps, and bumped into a few friends as well (only 1 was considered close enuf to wana stick around with her for the rest of the nite). Haha. There was a live band performing, games, and basically lotsa time to mingle around. Glad the company was good, and ppl we met were *mostly* nice & friendly & cool to chat with!
It really released my work stress (a lotta work load nowadays, and boss is getting HARDER to deal with)!
These few weeks have been tough, but I'm glad that even though when I feel down/stressed/worked up bout stuff (and appraisal), God shows me that He's always there with me. Like recently, although work's stressful + tiring, but sales come in automatically (even when I do not have time to call up my clients). Even boss's mood is not as bad as the week before.
Really grateful to God, for his love & encouragement. :)))
Hey all, just to say HI! I'm almost getting confirmed (at work), (higher mgmt) boss thinks I'm ready to take on more tasks. Looking forward to it. Erm, what else. Choir's OK. I've joined nicer sounding choirs, prolly cos we lack guidance here.. I dunno. Or everyone's just too good to wana harmonize properly with each other (and not fighting to sing louder than each other :P).
(Sorry, no time to "sugar coat" today). HAha :P
Oh yea! I actually performed 2 solo songs in the past month! But i didn't really like how I sounded (especially the 2nd time). But when ppl say it's nice, I can't say "NO, DONT COMPLIMENT ME!". HHAhaha. That would be totally weird!
Imagine someone smiling and feeling so happy, running towards the performer who just finished performing a song. With great joy, she says "you were great!" and the performer frowns and says "What? U call that great?? I could've done better!"
HAHahhaha..
Yea, u can tell I'm rushing for time, huh.. The way I write's not me. HAhaha.. I meant in the way that there's not much elaboration. I know I still say silly things / am lame in my way. :P ANYWAY, later! Have a great weekend ahead! =)
U know, I feel kinda bad that a colleague of mine feels bad cos he promised his dealer to deliver stuff to them (if I don't go over). It's not his product, but mine. So if anything, it'd be right for me to go over instead of him. Both my colleague and the dealer are really nice people. =(
Thing is, I DIDN'T promise the dealer to go over, and I didn't make any appointment to go see them either. But this colleague of mine (also one of my lunch partners) said he would (to the dealer) if I didn't. Even though I tried calling the dealer to tell them to come pick up their stuff at our warehouse themselves (cos the amount they ordered was insufficient to send out), they kinda expected someone to deliver it to them anyhow. So now, I feel bad for my colleague cos he ended up being the one dealers depend on. =(
And I think my colleague is kinda pissed off as well. At who or what, I dunno. But hopefully he won't stay angry.... Or I'd get my head bitten off, i think... =P
Hey ppl! How was the China Olympics opening ceremony?? They just WOW-ed us with their numbers, rite??? Haha.. Wow.. But I missed the count-down part, and now even with ASTRO i don't know when's the repeat!! How can ASTRO not have any repeat of the OPENING CEREMONY?!!? Right??....... For once what they are famous for would be useful but it doesn't apply here... Sigh....
Anyway, life's good in some ways, and alright in others. I recently joined the AYA choir to perform on AYA Dream Awards Night. Really looking forward to it! =)
Met up with quite a bitta old friends these few weeks. Been nice. But hopefully it won't drain my moneyyyy. Hahaha.. ;P
How's everyone? (I mean those who are still reading. Haha)
Hi all, just popped by to say HIIII (nearly spelled popped as pooped)! :P
Nothing interesting to share now cos I need my precious sleep! ZzzZz.
Oh, actually I do have some brief updates before I head to bed.... I'm working everyday now! *sigh*. I need the money, so I'm working part time during the weekends as well. It's been really tiring, and I miss sleeping in on weekends! Oh well.....
Boss is still the same. Gets irritating sometimes. But I've got no choice. If I like my job, then I gotta put up with the "side nonsense". At least she sometimes KINDA cares bout her subordinates in her weird ways. (Which ppl dun get at times). (Sigh).
Apart from that, my lunch buddies at work are still not fixed. But I changed group now. Hopefully this gang'll be my lunch gang. They're younger. They're all guys though. And one of the guy there especially likes to tease me. My goodness! (he's married, ok). And he is so corrupted la. But SO very random & funny! HAHAHAha...
Ok, better go off now before I start surfing the net and become more & more alert. I'll regret that tomorrow, when I lack my precious sleep..... =P
Sigh. This week, she (superior) has tested my patience... She was talking, lecturing, scolding, loudly as usual (for 3 whole days already!). I sorta snapped back (gently) at her twice already. The 2nd time, even though my words were not "attacking" her, it was quite loud. I think the whole office could hear me. =\
I prayed to God to not let me snap at her and just show me the (nice & wise) way to talk to her in ways that she would realise her actions AND not be so mean to me. Sigh. =\
Need to be really careful this week. Seems like she's in bad mood these days.
Everytime someone asks me how's work? I always answer them "so far so good". I think that's the best SHORT answer I can give. It sums everything up.
- I'm learning more at work - I think I'm doing OK but I can be better - My colleagues in the office are mostly nice people - My colleague (same department) is a very nice & helpful person - My superior is not great & not easy to work with - But she's not THAT bad either. (some ppl will disagree though) - But really, compared to someone else, she's not EXTREMELY bad. - I think God put me here for a reason - Most importantly, I'm doing OK at work - Some work stuff/issues can be better, but it's ok.
By replying "so far so good", I don't need to go into details (because that statement makes a lot of sense to me), especially if it is inappropriate to share more information about work / my superior that frustrates me. When needed OR prompted by someone I think I can share more stuff about, I can elaborate more on that statement. If not, people would just move on to another question. Nice, eh?
Note to self: Yay! This post is actually written based on 4 words only ("so far so good")! I should learn how to talk like this at work. Then trouble'finders' won't get any juicy stuff from me, cos I'll just be repeating on the same thing. Yay.
I'm not well but I'm not sleeping yet. First was cos I couldn't sleep. And now, it's cos the internet's so slow here!! No, I haven't subscribed to any internet services yet, it's my dad's CACATED 3G connection thingy. Which is annoying. But..... at least I get to online a bit la... So can't complain that much... :P
At this new place I'm working now, I've met different kinds of people. Lotsa women here. And people here are quite... gossipy. Haha. If that's a word. But meah, there're always lotsa gossiping (grapevine, hah) at all work places! Anyway, lemme intro u to a few characters that made a bit more impact to me these 2 mths.
Guy 1: A single man in his 40s, i think. Nice, happy-go-lucky guy. And i think has a heart (crushes) on all 'leng lui's (pretty girls). Haha. Don't get offended, Mr., Ok? :) Guy 2: Wow. I admire this guy purely because of his gentleman-ness. :) Guy 3: This guy of higher management level is a joker la. Seems cold at times, but actually he's some kinda joker la. :) Guy 4: He seems patient & very willing to listen to others' frustrations. Which is good and rare for a (married) guy. =)
Girl 1: This colleague has similar characteristics of mine. So we kinda udrstd each other in some ways. She's really helpful. Patient. Sincere. 'Motherly'. Thankful I got to know her. :) Girl 2: This person is kinda hard to work with. Doesn't change her approach with ppl (I dunno why) and judges people a lot! She can make your life miserable (especially with her double standards), but at the same time, she's NOT that mean till she bullies. So i guess, may be if she improves her INTERPERSONAL SKILLS then she'd be more likable to others. ;) Girl 3: She's not bad looking. Quite pretty. But she needs to smile more. For a few weeks I thought she was an unfriendly girl cos she didn't smile. :(
There. I told u a bit more bout my work stuff. I'm satisfied that I did. =)
Psst. If you happen to be one of my colleague and stumbled upon this page, I hope u read this with an open heart. These are not written outta anger and all. Just some general update. Anyway, your identity isn't disclosed la. So chill la.
I can't believe this post wasn't published & remained a "draft" till today (28/6/08)! GRrr.
Argh. I really wana blog, but nowadays that I have so limited internet access (and no lappie of my own that has wireless connection card thingy in it), that I am discouraged to blog. :(
Not because I don't have anything to blog about, it's just that I forget bout stuff that I wana say cos everytime I've time & 'resources' to blog, it'll be later. And by then, I would've forgotten what is it about! =\\
The upside, however, is I have lotsa time to rest when I come back home. Kekeke.. I don't check emails/chat online (which I miss...)/read and google random stuff/waste more time online.
So I don't know I prefer which life. Or may be I do? ... Prolly I'd like to still be connected with the resta the world, but in a way that I'll be online JUST to check emails & blog. Just my own things, and of course chatting & finding out bout other ppl's lives!
Ahh... Should I go get internet & pay for it? Would I use it as much as I think I would? May be I'd be too tired OR may be I'd be caught onlining till late at night & be late for work the next day... Where I'm still under probation... :P
I know nobody misses me online (cos I'm such a "hi-bye" friend to many), and my blog isn't personal enough to many. [ BTW, having a balanced prsnlty doesn't make me a "no prsnlty" person! :( ].. But I still hope this blog won't die off. =\
Hehe, I know this entry seems like I'm talking to myself (which I kinda am! Haha!).. I really am typing whatever comes to my mind first.
So... Back to the main thing. Just a little updates from me...
God has put me in my new work place to make me grow (up). :P Mainly cos most ppl working there are now not-so-young. So my mannerism at work should be more... "professional"..? And the most important thing is, God has given me a boss (immediate superior) that is SOMEWHAT difficult to handle. So I'm gonna have to be somewhat creative in handling my 'boss'. I duwana be mean (or sacarstic) like most other people are to her, cos I feel she's actually not THAT bad. Just prolly her way of approaching ppl.
It is quite challenging, for me. Cos I really wana be nice to her (and remind her how much God loves us all - so we should show our love to others as well). At the same time, I also need to becareful of not getting into any unwanted 'trouble' (Example: taken advantage of / be manipulated / get stabbed behind my back).
I trust God will be with me, since I still want to do this. I mean, I wouldn't be able to do this with my own strength, really. If it was just purely me & myself trying to do good, I might've already given up. Usually people just try a few times. And if in return the person is still the same way they are, you'd just give up and not wana care for them anymore, right? Why purposely treat them better when they do not appreciate what u tolerate & do for them? Right? ... ... But because of Him, I still want to be nice to her. Just pray that I will not start gossiping and will continue my efforts in making her realise He wants us to all be a better person. And there's so much more to life than herself! :)
BTW, happy father's day all! I'm going off now. Long(er) entry, huh? Hope I won't MIA for long after this! ;P Nitey!
Hey, sorry been so long since I updated. The latest update is, I've decided what I wanted to do with my job. And so I decided to leave my then current company to join a new one. It's been 3 weeks now, and so far so good. :)
I had a blog entry saved up to publish, but I didn't bring it. Dang. U know, from an "online person" (I duwana say addict, cos I wasn't!) it's really a big change for me, to not have any internet access now. Seriously, I'm working for a Japanese cmpy and now I've got no internet access at all. I only got my work email. Sigh. It's crazy, but at least there some plus things about my work. Like, 95% of the people leave the office ON THE DOT. So yea, i guess I'll have a reasonable amount of 'quality of life'. :)
How's everyone? I'm sorry I do not follow up with u all nowadays. =\\
My office's so cold! Most people even commented that we could bring a winter jacket here & everyone would think it's appropriate. Haha.. However, not everyone agrees to that - especially the (fat) guys! =P Anyway, I'm alone in the office right now, so, good thing I can go switch off the main air-cond switch!
It's the time in my life that I've to make bigger decisions & some of them are really tough! I'll take my time on some, but other stuff (like work for example) will require me to make quicker decisions. Which, is difficult cos there're so many choices / paths! ArgH... Still being vague cos I can't blurt details out & get questionned bout it later.
Sad I don't keep in contact with many already. Especially after I got somewhat 'disconnected' from the internet world. Also, during weekends, I just feel tired & not willing to spend $$ going out. Going out and finding topics to talk about is sometimes seen as "tiring" to me. I wonder why... Is this really what work life does to you?
Nevertheless, I don't entirely see it as "tired to go out because I go out everyday anyway to go to work, and now I just wana rest". But more of, just being tired of 'entertaining' others & making ppl happy. I just want to be the way I am. I duwana 'teman' (accompany) u into the shop if I don't feel like it. I duwana talk much when I dun feel like it.... But... I've got a bad habit that I'd just talk when I'm out with friends. As if I'm responsible to be the 'hostress'. It's like.. "Oh, I must make sure there's no awkward silence. I should keep things interesting & making sure everybody is entertained", or something. Sigh.
Perhaps that's why I seldom call my friends out nowadays. Even if I do, I'd just go anywhere nearby. Or places that they frequent. Anywhere with less cars too. Mostly to wherever is convenient for them. Sometimes I feel =( (refer to last sentence). On rare occasions I do get them to come to me. So I guess OK lah. Oh well.
Hey alll.. I made a decision already regarding my job. I'm not at liberty to discuss it with you now though, as it isn't final yet & things are not happening yet. But I'll pray bout it to ask God if He thinks the choices I make are right or wrong...
Oh, btw.. Notice that I blogged twice this week already? Good, huh? =P
A random thought. A colleague of mine mentioned that there will be no public holidays in April. I went "ya la, it's the normal case. My birthday month's boring..." I continued with "Sometimes I do get lucky though. Prophet Mohammad's bday might fall somewhere close to enda April! ... So does it for this year??". He replied me "Neh, it's his b'day this Thursday".
Decisions on work - Follow, Change to 3rd Dept, or Change Cmpy?
Had a bad week last week. Lotsa changes at work too, which I haven't decided on what to do BECAUSE salary package would change too. No, company is not downsizing. Just lotsa reshuffling. I don't wana leave my company as I really look forward to grow with it. But as of now, I haven't made up my mind on the next step that I would take. Anything is possible. Will be making the decision like VERY soon. So..... We'll see...
Other than work being on my mind, other things are just minor stuff. So, do pray for me if you're reading this. I need direction & guidance to make the right choices... *Keeping fingers crossed as well*
I'll be off from work, yay! However, I'll be attending a funeral ceremony - somewhat - for a few days. So no matter what, it'll be tiring for me. Hope I get enough sleep & able to sleep well, these few nights to come! Sorry that I care less about you now, bloggy dear, but I really don't have the internet connection at home; when I'm in the office, I've work to do.
I still hope to post some pictures up though. At least u'll be entertained by some random shots, right? =P
On a more personal note, I miss MY. Hope to be able to spend more time with him... =\\ *sigh*
Ok, gotta go organize and pack up my department's messy table cum cabinet, and move them all to our store room. Still left some time to do so, then I'll be leaving the office.
Thank you, Amy! For still reading my so outdated blog (ish-ness!), and leaving comments! Thanks again for making me a little happy! =)
Haha, I'm so used to saying "dear all". Anyways, work's been frustrating. Immediate superior's nice & fair, but sometimes the big boss's direction is the only "opinion" that matters - which frustrates us, the subordinates. Usually it's a sorta one-way kinda thing. It's only us understanding the management goals; and not superiors trying to get our point of view. A few issues here and there. Mainly cos I'm such an obedient worker (haha).. I should start defending myself and speaking up. But I feel that it won't make a difference even if I voiced out my thoughts! It'll let my superior know how I feel about it, at most.
Hmm.. I really should start believing that management level staffs are not only busy achieving their own agenda @ objectives right? =\
It was super peak period at work. I'm not sure if I have mentioned it before, but it was pretty stressing & frustrating. Basically I've to depend on others in order to perform / do my work properly. But some of those people kept delaying me OR did not complete their jobs. I felt so angry last week. Now, I can't find the right words to tell my boss (superior) about how swamped I felt.
On another note, I'm getting a car soon. Hopefully. And I pray that this 2nd hand car's in a good condition and will last me 20 years. Hahaha.. I mean, be good AND remain good for many years. So IF i decide to sell it off, I won't need to repair much of it, and the value of car would also still be high. Reveal the car model later. =P
So sad I need to get a car, when the ratio of people VS cars in Malaysia is 2:1 - including all babies, young, or old people; city or suburb people. It's really a "no choice" thing. I work till late hours, my office is KINDA secluded. =( Oh well! Another car to contribute to the traffic jam + pollution! =P
I'm so sorry....... Seriously, I was so busy and tired, I had no time to even remember to update my blog!!!
It's official. It's the first time that I EVER leave my blog unattended without any updates whatsoever for 3 whole weeks! Not that I ever leave my blog for more than 6 days before... =P
It's really peak period at work, and I've been going back home late for more than 1 week now. It's very tiring. Lotsa last minute work as well..
Good thing that no matter what now, I am still going to take Friday off because I've to work on Saturday anyway. So I am keeping my fingers crossed that I can just stay at home on Friday! I need my precious rest. It has really been tiring for the past 1 week + and a few more to come... >_<
Anyhow, HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008! I never really got to wish you. =)
