She's a Malaysian. Tied up. Loves the city and lives in it. Currently looking for a Marketing job in retailing / fashion / accessories. Calls herself a "young adult" 'cos that's what being 20+ means, right? *grin* . Meet Soniaaka PhoEbe.
WISH LIST
- Have another holiday in Australia!
- More mobile phone credits
- A trenchcoat like jacket
- My Delias's wishlist
- MY to come home
- Cushion to hug (big)
- 17" flat screened desktop
This is my blogchalk: Malaysia, Selangor, Petaling jaya, English, Chinese, Sonia, Female, Singing, performing, organising events, catching up with frens, spending time with loved ones, learning, cycling.
Monday, June 28, 2004 :::
So blessed!
Hehehe.. Thank you for ur comments. Haha.. If u were wondering, ur comments DO comfort me. Hahaha.. =P I'm so pathetic. But it's the truth! Haha.. I must get at least 1 to 2 comments after every 3 posts =PP. Oh well.. *sticks tongue out*
MY drove to KL today, and he almost scared the heavens outta me! You know KL lar, it's kinda messy there, (the roads and all, IF ur not used to it). We stopped at a crossroad cos the red light was on. We wanted to head right, towards KLCC. When the green straight arrow light went on, MY stepped on the accelerator. He didn't know that the green light was ONLY for those who were going straight; It wasn't a green light for those planning to turn right. We were SO FORTUNATE that there weren't THAT many cars going straight (blocking us from turning right). I don't know how else to explain it in a clearer way. (No pictures, sorry!)
=O SO fortunate! Thank God man! =O
Before I blog about a movie I watched today, Alwin sorta recommended this quiz to me. Just for fun. Haha.. ;))
How to make a sonia
Ingredients:
5 parts friendliness
3 parts humour
3 parts instinct
Method: Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of caring
So about the movie - Breaking News. Highlight for my comments on the movie ( spoilers! ):
The starting was already a turn off. It was to me. The shooting scene was ridiculous. How can one NOT get shot when there are so many police (on his left, behind him, infronta him!) aiming at that ONE guy, in the middle of the road, just a few feet away from the police. Plus, he wasn't hiding behind ANYthing (no shield)! So... intentionally. So unreal.
Throughout the whole movie, they never really showed anything interesting. Everything shown were short scenes here and there. No climax also. It was pretty shallow & MEANINGLESS. There wasn't any strong @ attractive story line. Quite boring I would say. It'll be my first time saying this, but, IT was a WASTE of my TIME watching this movie! If u were to ask me what was the movie about, I would be speechless, because.. the truth is, I DON'T KNOW! =P. Stupid show! =P Overall, I'll rate it 3.5 out of 10. And I'm being very generous already! =P. MY even told me that this movie was nominated in the CANNES award? Weird...
#1. I think I'm losing more visitors @ readers (again). The feeling is back. Haha.. ;P. I feel a bit discouraged when I've got no comments at all. I mean, no comments after I publish a few posts. Kinda sad, huh? =P. Guess the reason why I'd feel so is because: this is my public blog where I don't mind almost anyone reading it. It sort of feels like I want to share it with people, but it seems like people are listening but just not paying attention to me. Like everyone's just listening for the sake of listening, not becos they WANT TO listen. I'm such a troublesome person. *sigh*.. ;P. Haha.. Btw, I know it can freak bloggers out when any tom, dick or harry can access to our personal blog, but so far so good (for me). =P.
#2. Anyways, I can't find my ring(s)! It doesn't feel right. Haha.. U know, when u are used to having something on ur fingers, and when it's not there, it feels like u are lacking something. Then you finally reach out to touch your fingers, trying to feel for the ring, and it REALLY isn't there. And then, you miss ur ring. Haha.. =PP
Hey, anyone's going for Richie Jen's concert next week? Why did he change his name from "Richie Ren" to "Richie Jen" anyway? Any idea?
Ok.. May be it's not that funny, but I must tell you: I also laughed at myself when I saw this face / look in the mirror. ;P
I was trying to curl my hair. Was a DIY experiment.
I cut my old towel into pieces, and used it to do a DIY curl. Haha! =P
Hehe.. Can't help wanting to laugh, ya know..
There. Pictures that can make me look silly. The curl wasn't that successful cos I slept on them. No pics sorry. My HP's memory was full! *LoL*. Did I look nice in it? Neh.. I don't think I can look nice with curly hair. Or at least, I know I look better with my normal wavy hair. Hehehe.. So why the DIY curl? Wellll, it was all for fun! ;D
I wanted to blog about this earlier, but now's good too. =P
Did you know that Yahoo! Mail improved it's services by :
- Increasing its storage capacity to 100MB
- Increasing the individual message send/receive size to 10MB ?
Yeah! Let's get more competitive! ;P I hope Yahoo!'s uptime & etc would be as good though. Coz' you know, when something's popular, it'll get too crowded / overwhelemed. And then bla bla blahhh.. Just like Friendster, I bet they didn't anticipate how popular it'll get. Hence the frequent 'downtime' OR maintanence, which creates dissatisfied customers. Haha.. I'm bad at constructing these kinda sentences. Hope u understand me -lah. ;))
Btw, you can expect some photos to be put up soon. Note: prepare to laugh at me.. =PP
Funny.. I thought I left my blog alone for like 4 to 5 days already. Yay! It was only 3 days. Haha.. =P
Sorry no pictures from M'sian Idol 2004 yet. Haha.. I must wait till MY uploads the pics into his comp. Which means, u might need to wait for a longer time. Haha! Haih.. ;P
Anyway, to all American Idol fans out there, I'm quite sick of ASTRO showing the contest series so late. I mean, it has been quite long since {Fantassia} ( <==highlight to read the winner's name) won the title. Cable TV (eg: NTV 7) already shown it like a few WEEKS ago.. So my point is, the TV is on now, and American Idol is on, but somehow I've already sorta lost interest in watching the show now. *sigh*.. Oh, And I think the 1st season's American Idol is awesome! Her performance, fashion style, etc. Kelly Clarkson's good! ;D
Btw, how can MY say that I'm thick skinned?? =PP Me not feeling afraid of his parents makes me thick skinned. Argh.. >_<
I'll leave you with a pic I took from my handphone. This, is my previous cat's EX-girlfriend. Heeh! ;))
I just got home. Tired... Will upload the wav file of my singing + some pics when I can.
Anyway, for Malaysian Idol, you just have to show youself at Berjaya Timesquare on your audition date, and:
1. Register
2. Wait for ur turn (It takes hours. =P. Took me more than 4 half hours! =P)
3. Will be gathered into a group of 10
4. Go with ur group to the waiting area
5. Wait for ur turn to sing (After they roll the camera)
6. Wait for results. And byebye
How it went for me? Well...
i. I was auditioned by 3 female judges (All girls?!??)
ii. One judge stopped me when I haven't even sang the chorus part of the song. She requested me to sing a malay song for the chorus part... (Bias?? And I didn't prepare a malay song actually. I didn't prepare my Getaran Jiwa. =P)
iii. Explained that I don't know any, and if I even knew, I wouldn't know the lyrics.
iv. They excused me. NEXT!
v. Waited for my 'group members' to finish singing.
vi. I was surprised to be called in to resing the song. Only with a verse more (the chorus part only, no bridge)
vii. Acted a bit stupid in front of the judges this time (You'll know it IF u see it on TV.. =P)
viii. Forgot to infrom judes the reason for my actions (which is VERY reasonable.. =P. Felt dumb again. =P)
ix. More dumb - I forgot to ask for feedback! I mean, they MUST BE considering something (or found sumtin interesting bout my voice to ask ONLY me into the audition room AGAIN). So why no feedbacks?!? I want!
x. Went downstairs and were gathered in the results room.
xi. So near, yet so far. I didn't get into the next stage.
Last note:
I just saw on 8TV, that MANY people who did much worse passed the 1st audition, which is pretty unfair. I've many many more comments actually. Why not you guys just go ask MY about it? =P. Hehehe.. Not nice for me to say them myself. I duwana sound so.... proud? (can't think of a more suitable word to use -lar) =P.. ;)
Hehehe.. I was laughing at MY when I read ur comments on my last post. =P
Anyways, i've 2nd thoughts about Malaysian Idol. I mean, you guys will tell me, since I signed up already, why not try, right? But I also told u that my voice needs the training etc. So, I decided :
IF i co-incidently am at KL on the 11th June 2004, I will go for the audition.
But what song to sing? I'm considering Colours of The Wind & Getaran Jiwa at the moment. Any other suggestions? I can't really sing fast songs, by the way. So yea. Hehe.. Help? x))
Reminder: I'm moving to a new domain (website) soon. Not this week, but will keep u posted. ;))
Hehe.. I didn't realise, BUT, i actually was siow siow (crazy) a bit. Thought lotsa nonsense. Like a little outta my mind. No, not suicidal thoughts; but more weird nonsenses that I usually won't be thinking.
For example, when MY called me, this came up:
Me: "Stupid nose. Got running nose again. Haihhh.." MY: "Cut your nose off loo. Then u will look ugly after that. Hehe.."
And my reaction was..... to cry! =P
I was crying because I actually felt ugly! That I'm no more pretty OR attractive already. I mean, I know I feel less pretty now, but not till I feel like I'm ugly. But at that moment, I felt so ugly. Really felt so.. AND, of course MY was joking! Who would go and cut off their noses to look ugly, rite? U get me lar.
*sigh*
Haha.. Oh well. Anyways, thanks for ur comments, people! =). And thanks, Chian for ur msg.. ;))). Btw, the SHORTer + CLEAR version of the "lyrics", is on my friendster bulletin post. ;P. Tas!
*Some long thing I wrote. Still applicable, but it's quite... lenghty =P*
Oooh.. Am I someone special to anyone on earth?
Do I make a difference in people's life
Make an IMPACT?
I read
My testimonials
And of course, they made me smile..
But why, dont I feel
Like I'm SOMEONE?
I know, you would say:
"Get a life, friendster isn't everything",
Hey you! Of course I know that...
You got it right,
You got it right,
Friendster MADE me think,
think about stuffs.
And then, I feel..
So normal,
So plain.
Then why don't I get thank you notes?
What about appreciative emails?
Phone calls?
Gestures?
Why didn't anything make me feel
"Wow, I touched someone's life today" Nothing at all
Why oh why..
I don't go around
Hinting and asking for appreciation
Oh yeah yeah..
What would people think?
Why would I want to do that?
DOH! It's insincere;
We're suppose to give SINCERELY
And, I don't go around CHOOSING who to be nice to,
Tom, Dick, Harry, Jack, and Jill
It just comes,
Oh.. It just comes..
So yes, the story is about
Me reading the testimonials
And it made me think
Made me think hard
Oh yes,
It is rational thoughts, oh, rational thoughts:
Oh, oh, oh...
Am I THAT ordinary?
Don't I ever matter MUCH to anyone?
Am I just a mere existance on earth
Or I AM (was once) da bomb in people's life,
In peoples life
(Da bomb... In people's life)
Me, my name,
my age, my gender,
I'm friendly, talketive, and cheerful...
So tell me..
Why
Don't I feel
that I leave an IMPACT in people's life?
that I actually helped someone A LOT?
I don't ask
For 'thank you notes'
But if I deserve it
you will give it to me..
You will do it
When u do it,
Oh no, no..
I don't go out asking
Asking to be rewarded...
Not that I
Wana stand out from the crowd;
Not that I
expect to gain credits for everything;
Not that...
It's a feeling
A weird feeling
The feeling of being taken for granted
And yes, it's a mixture of feelings.
It's weird.
Why why tell me why..
La la la la la la la..
Am I really
Really someone so easily forgotten?
Am I really insignificant?
Am I?
No one, seems to be grabbing me tight,
Tight and not wanting to let go off me,
Like how pirates grab on to their treasure..
Not even once, in my life I felt that.
The closest oh thing,
Was the feeling
of someone trying to wrap me up.
Oh yeah, yeah..
But then I realised,
That someone, was taking
Taking forever to wrap me up
Oh, oh, oh..
Am I really
Really someone so easily forgotten?
Someone so insignificant?
So unworthy?
Am I?
Would people cry during my funeral?
Would people think
the world would be less meaningful without me?
Am I someone VERY TRUELY 100 percent important to anyone?
Do I matter a lot to anyone?
La la la la..
Oh, Do I?
Oh yes, I know you will ask or say:
"You know, you think too much"..
I too wonder IF i need too much reassurance,
But to tell you the truth
I, am being very rational here.
Ra-tio-nal..
No. No. No.
No, this is NOT a negative message from me. I am feeling per-fectly OK.
Just that, I've been thinking..
Just thinking..
Reminder: I'm moving to a new domain (website) soon. Not this week, but will keep u posted. ;))
I'm feeling much better today! Yay! Heheheh.. So I'm going out tomorrow! =))
Btw, I just went to delias.com, again. =D. High on clothes again. *LOL*. Have u seen what's on my Delias wish list? Type in phoebe_82@email.com to see what's on my wishlist. Just for the sake of seeing my tastes of fashion! =D Sorta. hehe.. Arent they just pretty? =DD I want to go shopping!! Ahah.. x))
I don't wana feel any worse than I'm feeling now. Pray for me, will ya? =). I hope I get to go out tomorrow or something. To meet AF. She's leaving for Scottland next week.
