Thursday, June 21, 2007 :::  

Relationships... Not that HER friends would even consider the logic behind this post 

Sigh.


Not that my family members get along SUPER well, but we're OK. We spend some time together. We spend enough time together to laugh, argue, go on trips, etc.


But now, I'm feeling sad. Sad that I can't reverse things. I miss spending time with my (younger) sister, she said so too (some months ago). BUT i don't think that's the case.


In our immediate family, I only have my sis to talk to. I mean, u don't go and tell ur parents everthing, right? My parents aren't exactly the "friend-friend" kinda parent - the generation gap is pretty apparent.


I recently left her a msg (instead of talking to her directly). She read it (I double checked it after a week). But she showed no changes. She hasn't cared to spend more time with family (especially me), or come home earlier, or not to lock herself in the room that even my parents sometimes dunno she has already reached home. I told her bout how she didn't even care asking about parents' recent trip to Bali too. Oh yea, u can expect that she still kept quiet for days - she didn't care how was it for them OR what they brought back OR anything else!


Not that I am forcing her to come back before 9pm everyday, spend time with us every single day, etc. She CAN go do her own stuff; She can reach home at her usual time; She can spend time with her bf; She can chat on the phone with her friends; She can do whatever she wants - I duwana 'CONTROL' her. But I really do miss the times spent with her, chatting, laughing, window shopping, or just sitting down & doing nothing with her - as long as we did it together.


Family time as compared to bf / friends time feels so different, ya know? She doesn't even show a slight interest in us, in me! All she does is to.... come home late, lock herself in (our) room, and chat on the phone. When she comes hom earlier OR stays home longer (AKA go out later during weekends), she's usually too tired & lazy to do anything else.


Sigh. She doesn't miss her sister even a single bit. And our relationship strain was caused by her unreasonable actions before (when she was quite rebelious last time) -- Not that her friends would believe this. Since she's the OH-SO-INNOCENT girl ... And now, she has her own seperate life. Her family (and sister) are just insignificant people in her life that she doesn't seem important enough to FIND TIME to be with.


I accept the fact that her "head's just getting too big" now, but I am not content with this fact. =(   *sighhhh*...

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