Friday, August 06, 2004 :::  

Another first encounter. Shocking. Crucial. 

I myself cannot believe the following incident that took place, in class (college) today.


We were given a case study. And were asked to analyse & do a problem diagnosis on it. I tried doing it at home, but still didn't know how to do it properly. Then I remember the lecturer telling us that she'll explain an example in class this week. I figured, Okay.. I'm confused bout my work now, but hopefully the lecturer will help clear things up a bit. It's ok. Listen to her carefully & ask questions. That should do it"


Little that we know, she came into class, and just gave us a sample case - asked us to discuss among our group members. "Sample answers will not be given", she said. She'll only add comments after our discussion. I was thinking "Right. Let's try... AGAIN. Hopefully it'll not confuse me again.." Guess what? It did confuse me, and I didn't know HOW to do it.

Expressing myself:
This is a management subject, and I only seem to know how to do it the marketing way. I tried, hard. I reread the cases & concepts in the textbook. I tried to get myself to understand on HOW to actually start. But I still found myself not know which points are in which part of the (open systems) model? Are they in Part A, B, or C. Seems like the points can fit into part A & B. So what do I do now? etc etc..


I had no clue. I understand the case, but I am stuck. I don't even know what I did was wrong OR actually correct..??? So how do I do it the management way? How can I answer the question correctly?? I didn't know what to do, at all.

I can't believe that I actually cried, half way thru the discussion.


I know many people who don't know me well, would definitely think that I'm a person who cries quite often - over pressure, or anything. I can tell u that I'm not. (Well, apart from relationshipS problems lar)..


When I came back (home), I thought about the incident. I think my team members thought I was quite "weak"? Hehe..


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But anyways, point to stress here is, I cried! During discussion. Argh. I can't believe it myself. =P   The reasons are simply very simple --


1. It was my first time clueless.. And to top that,
2. I thought I wasn't gonna get any help from my lecturer.
~ Was quite sure I was gona be blur for the whole semester (including assignments), if this continues..
(Causes of why I feel so can't be blogged for certain reasons)


I'm feeling a bit better now, because my lecturer finally decided to explain a bit on how our answers should be. At least I know *something* now. Let's hope I'll know how to do a proper assignment now. I don't wana know-nothing....

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