Monday, April 19, 2004 :::  

22nd birthday. 

Will people remember when is my birthday when the time is nearing? Will people get too caught up in their stuffs (own activities etc) that they forget that "Hey! It's Sonia's birthday!" (question mark)


I even thought my bf might forget my birthday because he's pretty busy nowadays. Oh goodness. What has gotten into me?? =\\\.


Actually, even on my 21st, I wasn't that happy. I mean, it was good, my parents spent some amount of $ on my birthday party. I got to celebrate at a karaoke for once. =D. Seriously grateful. But it lacked one thing. A very important thing. Sincerity. I was sorta "pretending" to be happy. I was supposed to be happy anyway. And I cannot say I wasn't happy at all. I was a lil happy. Just lack the feel of it, if u get what I mean.


U should know that by now, I mean I don't expect everyone to wish me. I just wana get this outta my mind:
~ Would my expectations on what I want from my friends be fullfilled?


I'm sorry, but I do have some expectations from my friends, of course. =\\. Same as you would expect ur boyfriend to remember ur birthdate.


Will what I fear might happen, happen?


I can't help but think I'm losing my friends, or at least many hi-bye friends (I've my explanation).


=(


This is the first year I feel so "moodless". I'm not at all excited bout my bday. I know I've friends to go out with, etc. But.. but.. but still, I've this feeling. I don't feel like going out & celebrating it (May be cos I wana be treated as a queen on my bday?), BUT, if I don't go out, I think I'll feel worse; Think I'll cry. Haha.. Oh well.


For curious people, my birthdate is: every end of April. It's stated in my calendar, right on the left-est column. The date? You know...

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