Thursday, March 18, 2004 :::  

I'm a naive  .   weirdo... ?

*sigh*.. I feel bad & a little guilty.

Ok. May be not as much guilt. I just don't feel too good about myself. Reason being I'm sometimes just too stupid. I can totally screw things up. Lotsa things. Want some examples? I ask silly questions that people think the answers are just so obvious. I also say the wrong things not knowing that it'll bring certain hidden meanings. I'm sometimes slow.. Can I say that I'm naive? May be I am... I must be.

I just don't understand sometimes. Why must I be so weird in my thinking? Do you know that being weird in ur thinking means that u'll act somewhat differently from others? I can't help it, you know. It's a part of me... I've been trying to cut down on certain stuffs - to think like how others normally do. But it's still a failure. Though I managed to cut down a lillllllllll bit. *sigh*.

Btw, if u were wondering.. No, it's not peer pressure. It's different. It's me. Examples of what I mean by "weird" is in the 2nd paragraph. ;)

I wonder if I'd still have friends at the end of the day. Friends who can stand me when I think so differently. Friends who are patient enough to help me through this. Sometimes I even pity my boyfriend. Oh God... Help me...

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