Wednesday, May 21, 2003 :::  

-=[ On hiatus? ]=-

It is explained in the Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionary (I love this dictionary) that, hiatus is a pause in activity when nothing happens. So, yes. I, or rather this blog, will be on hiatus for bout 3 weeks.

Why?
I'm feeling guilty. My dad is quite angry & disappointed with the slacking me. I find it difficult to be the me I used to be already. Am I just tired of studying or what? Not like the normal me... I'm the type of person that CAN force myself to do certain things I have to do, even if I might not like it. Studies, are one of those things for sure. But why is it difficult for me to tell myself that I want A's as my exam results? Why am I in a more carefree mood now??

You know what? I'm just aiming to pass ONLY. Isn't it a sad case? People look high upon me & expect results from me, AND all they get from me are, my sighs, a plain smile, and may be a few sentences of "Yeah, I dunno what is wrong with me..."

Realisation
I've given up hope upon myself. (Ermm, Ok-lahhh.. Not given up alllllllllll hope la..). I mean, I've told myself that I've slacked & accepted the fact. ISHHhhhh.. Accepted it the wrong way. I have to slap myself awake, AGAIN. Quite weird for me to be acting this way -lor, actually. Very...

Summary
The most important thing / reason is, I'm feeling not nice inside, and I feel the need to force myself (motivate if possible) to study more. If I can, I wana be able to aim for A's with MY capabilities (which has sorta vanished, may be.....) My point isn't to boast here, k? -__-  ...   ;). Rested for too long already. Time to work now. These 3 weeks would be studying & preparing for my exams in June. Wish me the best peeps! ;)

Oh, btw, Happy Birthday, MONITA!! You enjoy your day, ok? You better! ;)) *hugs* & *kisses* from Sonia. =)

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