Wednesday, November 13, 2002 :::  

24th September 2002, Tuesday

I am feeling hurt now. I don't know, but it's just.. How could this happen to me?!?
Bah! So what!?! It happens to everyone....

I am feeling sad, and hurt, and disappointed. Guess it's just what God has planned. It might be a good thing that this has happened.

I have just been frank. Told my bunch of good friends what I really felt. Finally..

This is what I've told them (thru an online community)..

I wonder whether u read my msgs.. I'm sorry.. but i feel sad. Its like no comments on my stuffs wan-- I was so excited to tell u all those stuff, but..... =( .Even my questions also u din answer... =( . Sorry, im really feeling hurt..... Can't help it.... =(((

Now waiting for them to respond..

Vague to you, I know, but at least I told them how i feel by being honest. That's what friends have to do also. To understand each other better.

I've been through phases something like that, but never once, soOo bad. I feel insignificant. Transparent rather. If we were not meant to be good friends, let us be just friends then. Old friends..

We knew each other since 13-14 years old. I've always been the one who tries to tighten up bonds to see whether we were meant to be. At one time, I thought of letting go BUT suddenly, we've slowly became close again.. And now, we have grown up, going to different colleges, taking up different courses, pursuing different dreams.

MS,J,AF,Y were all at the same college last year. I was the only one in Sunway College. We still managed to stay close. Then, J and AF are now in the same uni. MS went to Russia for medicine. We still managed to stay close.. but I saw the gap between me & them.

Then, around July this year, we went to Mount Kiara, had a long chat in Coffee Bean when MS came down for hols. Things were perfect that day. I was so happy. AND again, I let it be.. Let the friendship develop naturally.

It has been up & down for me. I mean for a few times, I thought that our friendship was going to grow cold but for many times, it builded up again later.

I know that friends come and go. But, I'm not hurt because of that. I can't tell u what exactly.. But I'll tell you their responses.

Hey. I'm okay. I hope I did not spread my   :(   to you.

=p.

Gotta do my assignments now. Ciow! ;)

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